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It's all about me not u . If i've do anything sucks just remind me . Plus i'm not perfect person . Thank you for understanding me .

Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah :)




When someone depend on you, you will find there's a huge responsibility to carry and try to hold it strong as you can. That's true right? Yeah i feel it right now, and i'm scared of it. Could i hold it within 4years? Or could i finish it well with CGPA 3.5 and above. What i need are effort, prayer and support from family and friends. I afraid that i'll feeling blues and no one encourage me again, fall into a deep cave. Remind me to always think positively, others people can do, it will same goes to you. Just put an effort and dont forget to pray completely in a day. 


"When you are simply going out with your family or friends, you just can't act silly like that. people see you by the title you gained. being jovial and funny is okay. but being a doctor is not only at work, it's a life. patients' perceptions towards us. being scolded by the patient's family cause I told them the truth of the patient's condition, politely and nicely. they scolded me cause they say the mother couldn't face the truth. well yes, being scolded by your professors while presenting a patient in front of your peers. exams. hell yes examssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss I should say. loads of exams. and another two loads of terms to be memorized, in details. stress. stress. stress. the competition you'll be having is much more higher. you must survive. or you won't make it to the end. if you're doing medic for glamour and money. you're totally absolutely wrong. medicine is a battle field. it's not a casino world. no. in medicine, you're at war. you fight. and you gotta win. you must win. you might tumble you might fall you might be hurt, but no you must not lose. in medicine, it's not about being proud of yourself. like you're chatting with your friends, "eh you skrg buat apa eh?" and you answered boastfully,"eh you tak tau ke? I doctor tau skrg. doctor." well kinda like that lah. in medicine, it's about giving respects and gaining it twice back from people around you. yes that's how it works. so yea, you think you have it all to do medicine? think thrice. if you have what it takes to go through all these mean stuffs, then go for medicine at the highest gear along with turbo and never turn around. this is a one way route.", Dr. Tengku Syed Muhammad Naquib.



Hahahha the truth is i never know who is Dr. Tengku Syed tu, nut yeahh i admit 100% what's he said. All the words stab in my heart omgezzz yeah the life's going on what we seen and adapt to it. Gambatte hana for your coming repeat exam during holiday. Dont keep playing around -..- geez.  





Lately, I didnt know what is happening on me? Even I have a lot of friends which always around me and made me happy but honestly I'm not. You can see me laugh like a donkey, hmm I'm afraid but I didnt know what I'm afraid of. Maybe I'm afraid with myself my life. Consequent of that, I usually made a wrong step in my life. I didnt know with who I wanna share with, please I am really hope that someone could appear in my life that I can cry and release these problems. I need someone that can understand my problems are. Stop here, I wanna cry in my sleep, in the dark place, and regret in what I had done and appreciate it. I do really hope that I can find back my Pippin please please I wanna cry silently beside him.


Happy Tree

In medic, he is my patient.
In math, he is my solution.
In english, he is my grammar.
In chemistry, he is my reaction experiment.
In pharmacology, he is my drug.
In movie, he is my prince.
In my eye, he is my clowns.

HAPPY TREE FRIEND!

by ; anonymous

My beloved mum and dad xoxo ;)


My dad said to me :
1st : Ana cepatlah besar jadi doktor.
2nd : Nanti dah jadi doktor jangan sombong, ingat keluarga ayah, emak, abang ngah, abang cik, dengan kakak.
3rd : Amboi anak ayah ni tak hensem langsung jerawat penuh dekat muka


Then my mum said :
4th : Asyik merayau je kau ni, jangan berani sangat dik.
5th : Dapat cuti je nak pergi konsert duit tu habis ke situ lah
6th : Jangan stress belajar tu, kalau tak faham tanyalah kawan mak tu ada dia free je

My thoughts :

Okay mum and dad. You are too sweet for me. What ever you said, i will remember till end of my life. Im the one who will appreciate you till the end of your life. I wanna be the daughter who is bathing her parents when they died and pray for their blessing. My prof told me that older people getting hurt easily physically and emotionally. Neither their bone nor heart are soft. I really love them :')

Charity toward aboriginal kids

Im gonna miss them a lot. This is my first experience to join the charity club where I'd taught them about basic life support. This programme was awesome to the kids where they had learnt how to save ones life by doing a CPR and how to stop bleeding and etc. The gross thing ever I had is when they were doing a CPR on a fake patient and at the mouth area I found their saliva like a cup of water there. Yucks! Hahaha what a kid I have that time -..-

Thanks Perak, I miss to be there and I miss to live there. Ohhhmaiiii hometown
\(TT,TT)/

The Second Bitter Heart

Am I a bad girl to you?
What's going on actually, hmm you said it's okay if I'd text you.
But this time, the second time you didnt reply my message.
Please dont make me wonder anything, if you already have anyone which is special in your life please let me know.
So that I can give up on this trying, make you to love me.
Even the words going out from your mouth are hurt but at least the lesion is temporary and it will heal by my leukocytes.
But if you are keep quite without saying anything, it will forever make me hurt and so on it will cause tumor.

Credit to: AAM

The world is changing, me too :(


Being in hardcore scene yes it filled me alot of energy to do something in my life. But currently i need to filled my life with alot of feelings. I wanna cry, happy, angry and feel peaceful. That why now im choosing skramz scene where i will gain more and more emotion.
Dear hardcore scene, from my bottom of heart, i wanna say truly sorry. I cant choose you right now. Im finding my new way now. Now, im putting you aside of my life just for awhile. Sometimes i will find you back :')



"This seems to be the only way out, the only option...."




Here we go, who's going this show? Hopefully you all get benefit from it like what we found in their lyrics.

"Stand by everything you said,
stand by the promises we made,
let's go of everything I've done,
I'll run into your open arms,
and all I know,
I love you more than life, I love you more than life"
- More Than Life




POST ROCK! POST ROCK!

I don't know why recently I'm always listen to post-rock genre. Maybe the song is good to listen anytime and anywhere. For me, it will make you feel calm and peace maybe.
Hmm because of that, I need to save my money from buying lunch, comics, and etc. I wanna have a new collection of the post-rock please D:

And you now what, I have plan before this, i wanna go Mogwai Live in Bangkok on 2 Dec, but just now I got my schedule and the bad things moment I had is that there is a week where I got final exam for Molecular Basis of Medicine and Nutrition. LOL -___-''

Furthermore, I have checked the flight price it's cost RM1K. Omg where can i get so much much in faster way?





Left the grey, the cold, i want to change.

Cloud mouth (End of The Earth)

On 7th oct after im finished my final exam for this anatomy block, i went to KLIA and meet Arwith together fetch Cloud Mouth from Chicago. Damn, i like their drummer is called Z. Not because of his appearance but his spirit while playing a drum. He got the skills.


Have you watch it? Cool, isn't it? Hehe. But they was rip now. Hmm so sad, but at lea
st i went to their last tour and got some poster together with signature also wishes from them. I'm really really miss them, even they are not famous here but in Chicago they also as hot as Comadre
too ^^


Miss them :') From my heart to the lung. Credit to Z, Matt, and John ^^




LOL IT'S ABOUT LANGUAGE ;D


Tksangka pula si suis la lune ni pandai bahasa utara :D

Ohh the amazing thing i had ever ;)



Look! They followed me back. I am so touched :')

The roses

The rose is red,
The violet's blue,
Sugar is sweet,
And so are you ;)

Aflower kollapsed ;)

COMADRE PUNYA FASAL :>

Okay punya laa excited nak share story about comadre. Hmm aku bangun awal tahu semata-mata comadre HAHA,
tapi gerak lambat juga about 2pm i think. This is because i'd accompanied my mum to service her car.
Dah siap-siap semua camera checked! battery phone checked! wallet checked!

So salam la kedua ibubapa sebelum pergi hihi jap ayah aku tanya ''Eh, nak pergi mana ni? Takbagitahu ayah pun.'' Aku pun jawab lah ''Ayah, hana nak pi tengok konsert ni, ada band datang dari Boston *actually comadre dari California. Bolehkan ayah? Hehe takdapat pergi Boston tengok dekat sini pun jadilah *Haa my dad every year got free ticket hmm kerja MAS katakan so aku pernah ajak pi Boston hehe :P. Then ayah aku diam dalam kiraan 10 macam tu. Aku cuak takut dia takkasi tapi alhamdulillah akhirnya i heard these words ''Jalan tu elok-elok, jaga diri :)''.

Bab paling lawak dan bodoh yang pernah aku hadapi ----> Before t
his, i used to drive a car went to Ampang with my family. But second time i went to that place, i forgot the direction!!! Next i'm lost and reached TAR highway. Pusing-pusing tang tu juga haishh, hati aku time tu panas je nak je rasa pi Season End Brawls dekat wankapir. I'm feel like a moron because i went the show alone. Sampai Ampang, nasib ada Arwith dia lah jadi GPS aku bagitahu Myevo dekat mana ohh :0 Do you know what time i arrived there? It was 9.15pm dude!!! Noob weh aku rasa aku takboleh kerja jadi driver.

Akhirnya, dapat juga aku bersama comadre. They all fuckin awesome like a k-pop artist haha. Hmm i think i'm rating them 6 out of 5. Can hah? If u still dont believe what i've said before naa check it out.



CRUEL HAND :)

I already finished my work then quickly going to ERL Putrajaya. Thanks to Umusalamah my friend at my workplace hehe without her i dont think that i can be at wankafir asap ;D

Sampai je sana tengok Notedown dh start perfor
m hmm baru nk sing along lagu i am who i am. Even crowd tkramai tp best hihi. I meet Diyana, Kc, Dura and etc *memang banyaklah kn nk sebut semua :>

Overall cruel hand is fucking awesome man! But my toplist band is still Nine eleven muahahaha. I remember the words i sa
y to Chrish "please come here again bro" he was smiled at me hikhik then he signed at my tees

:)

:D
:>

In the nutshell, thanks damn much to kak kc for helped me that night. May Allah blessed her and her friends :') *sobsob. Hmm tklupa untuk guy dubai yg dalam erl time aku nak balik haritu aku nk cakap "fuck you!" sukahati kau duduk sebelah aku then pegang-pegang tangan aku. Amek kau kene sound walaupun english aku tklah okay sangat -___-'''

Bye, watch this!



I like the ways you thinking ;)

Okay today i meet a guy, which is a PA for Dato' Sri Ali at my workplace. Just now he's start the conversation, that time i'm reading anatomy book.Hmm how best is it if i can have a brother like him :')
Even though he knows that im not getting 4flat for cgpa but he still supported me. Also he believe that i can go for it. "Alaa semua yang pandai-pandai mesti pergi oversea so ada peluang apa mintak UM"that what he said to me.

Not like others even my dad too.When they know i'm just getting 3.67.
They said ohh this quite tough too apply medic. Hmm thank you for giving me the strength bro. I'm really appreciate it!

FUCK HIM MUCH .

Stupid man >:/ i think i never angry like this before. Hmm siye hang ni, pi buka folder picture aku pakwe aku pun belum tentu dapat tengok. Nak je aku sepak hang tkpadan dengan pendek. Nasib hang satu tempat kerja dengan aku. Even i forgive but i never forget *cukup berdendam kan?

Triangle

Result :(

Untunglah pergi Genting sampai tktakut pun result kn hana? Hmm. Balik dari Genting on computer then i'm checking my result.


Alhamdullilah. There was an improvement from sem1. What the fuck? Bio B+ err i'm quite sad. For your information, i'm always keep studying Biology during study week compare to others subject but the result still not A. Sumpah sedih, i felt that i'm not have any chemistry with Biology. But i wanna take medic course please. Dear Allah, please give me a strength and a chance :'(